19 February 2009


Today begins a new journey, which ironically has me dealing with my past.  For the next 7 weeks instead of attending The Gathering at church I'll be attending The Journey.  I really enjoy The Gathering and I look forward to returning soon, but since these two groups meet on the same night at the same time, I've decided to take a deeper look into my heart and I've come to realize that I haven't dealt with many issues in my past.  My goal is to grow closer to God by learning how to grieve.

It seems strange to think about grieving = growing, but I've ignored some things in my past and I need to sort through them.  I look back now and I don't know where to begin or how to begin the grieving process!  Voila!  Here's an opportunity designed to help me do just that!  God's working in me and I want to obey.

Some of the topics of grieving include:
  • Depression
  • Job loss
  • Divorce
  • Loss of a loved one
  • Anger
Looks like I've got a lot to learn.  Each of the above listed topics have affected me personally and I want to deal with them individually.  I think this will help me learn from my mistakes (or the choices I've made), introduce positive coping skills in my life, and more importantly I will learn how to lay these things at Jesus' feet through grieving.  I think this is NOT going to be easy.  I feel many different emotions as I type this blog, but I know God's way does not equal the easy way.  So this journey begins tonight and I'm going to miss my friends at The Gathering, but I know I'll be a better person for having done this.

1 comment:

  1. I agree with your sentence that "God's way is not the easy way." Very true. But I realize that God's way is the better way. It seems that you can go through life in God's way and experience hard times, or you can go through life outside of God's way and experience hard times. The day that realization hit me was the day I made the choice to have hard times WITH God and not the other way around.
    Congratulations on your continued growth and your decision to let God heal and equip you ;) I'll be praying for you.